I got my Black belt in June last year, and while other students have gone on to new adventures and challenges, I’ve continued my martial arts journey, and realise that it’s been a year of mixed emotions. Following nearly four years of study, I experienced the euphoria of becoming a Kuk Sool Won Jyo Kyo Nim, this was quickly followed by the huge satisfaction of joining the Black Belt class, which I had previously spent many an hour watching enthusiastically from the sidelines. However, after a few months I started to experience what I can only describe as an anticlimax, training as a Black Belt just wasn’t what I expected it to be.
Martial Arts training as a Black Belt is different, the challenges you confront are more personal. As a student working toward your Black Belt, the instructor trains you to work hard physically, they intentionally push you to your limit, whether it be the number of push-ups you can do, how fast you can kick, or how well you can execute your forms. You’re pushed and pushed, and taught to overcome your self-imposed limitations. Just one more push-up, or kicking a bit higher, or performing a little bit faster. The instructor gets a little bit more effort, and energy out of us. More than you thought you had in you, and that’s how we advance, get better, and improve.
As a Black belt, I’ve recognised that training is about oneself, and how we push ourselves. The motivation and desire to learn, improve and train comes from within us, and not from our instructor. And it’s taken me a while to identify that needed change in my learning style, and how to apply that change. In fact, before I recognised the problems I was having, I’d become so disappointed with Kuk Sool Won I wanted to take a sabbatical.
However, the Christmas break came at a good time. During the three week break I spent a lot of time thing about the coming year, and what direction my training was going to take. I came to the conclusion that my continued development isn’t going to magically happen for me, and that I’d have to take hold of it, control it, and make it happen . . . . and for the past month that’s just what I have been doing.
So I’m now training four days a week, both in school and out, for about 6 hours, sometimes more, and I’m feeling great. I can’t remember feeling this motivated, energised, and having a passion to train and learn for a long time. It’s a fantastic feeling, I’m glad has returned. My home gym/dojang hasn’t seen much use over the previous six months, and it’s had a much deserved thrashing this past month. My private workout and training routines are demanding, physically challenging, and mentally tough. Ok, it’s only been three weeks, but I’m already feeling the benefits. My mind and body feel stronger and fitter, I’m more focused and committed, and most importantly, my enthusiasm for the Martial Arts has returned.
Learning a martial art is about personal success and achievement. It’s all about going as far as you’re able, then, when you think you can’t do any more or any better, find that place deep down inside yourself where you make yourself go just a little bit further, do a little bit better, succeed a little bit more.